♥ new camera
♥ LV Hampstead
♥ Chanel earrings
♥ lunch bag
♥ More heels!
♥ SHED POUNDS!
♥ earn more money
♥ SAVE more money
♥ hopefully to start my driving lessons =/
♥ apply for a flat, i didnt manage to get one months back
♥ Bali trip for me & b
♥ go on another trip w swt again
♥ get another bag for myself
♥ buy more heels!
♥ SAVE.
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Thursday, 27 November 2008
MOODLESS
Feeling very mood less.
very vexing as well.
Nothing goes smoothly for me.
My birthday planning is still sucking now.
my relationship sucks as well.
i tot the person that loves you should put everything behind and see you as the most important and he should help you with any difficulties he encounter and leave whatever he's vexing for a little while and help you out first?
But how come my situation is totally different?
He doesn't care about whether my problems are solved when i helped and stand by him when he needed me the most?
How come he doesn't care about my feelings and still accuse me of not sparing a thought for him when he has a problem to solve?
Why he doesn't ask me am i alright or do i need any help automatically when i helped him as much as i could ONCE i heard that he encounters problems?
DOES THAT MEAN THAT HE DOESNT LOVE ME AND IM THE ONE THAT IS LOVING HIM MORE? DOES THAT MEAN THAT HIS HEART IS NOT IN THIS RELATIONSHIP ANYMORE? DOES THAT MEAN THAT IM NOT THE ONE FOR HIM AND HE IS NOT THE ONE FOR ME?
How come i always have this feeling that he dont love me as much i love him?
that he dun care for me like what a boyfriend should do?
how can i make him understand that it all comes from the heart and it shouldnt be ME reminding him ALL THE TIME that he should remember to do this and that?
im very very extremely tired from all these.
im a girl, i also need people to care for me, coax me when i throw tantrums, surprise me once in a while, buy me flowers just to make me laugh, write short notes just to brighten my day. i seriously needed those dosage of happiness as well.
i need somehow to show me his love, give me a hug when i needed it, kiss me when i dun notice in the public, hold me hand anywhere, everywhere.
im feeling more and more distance from him.
dropping tears doesnt seem to help as i've done that too many times.
abusing myself doesn't seem to help either.
someone help me.
dun blame me if i find other solutions to solve, u forced me to.
very vexing as well.
Nothing goes smoothly for me.
My birthday planning is still sucking now.
my relationship sucks as well.
i tot the person that loves you should put everything behind and see you as the most important and he should help you with any difficulties he encounter and leave whatever he's vexing for a little while and help you out first?
But how come my situation is totally different?
He doesn't care about whether my problems are solved when i helped and stand by him when he needed me the most?
How come he doesn't care about my feelings and still accuse me of not sparing a thought for him when he has a problem to solve?
Why he doesn't ask me am i alright or do i need any help automatically when i helped him as much as i could ONCE i heard that he encounters problems?
DOES THAT MEAN THAT HE DOESNT LOVE ME AND IM THE ONE THAT IS LOVING HIM MORE? DOES THAT MEAN THAT HIS HEART IS NOT IN THIS RELATIONSHIP ANYMORE? DOES THAT MEAN THAT IM NOT THE ONE FOR HIM AND HE IS NOT THE ONE FOR ME?
How come i always have this feeling that he dont love me as much i love him?
that he dun care for me like what a boyfriend should do?
how can i make him understand that it all comes from the heart and it shouldnt be ME reminding him ALL THE TIME that he should remember to do this and that?
im very very extremely tired from all these.
im a girl, i also need people to care for me, coax me when i throw tantrums, surprise me once in a while, buy me flowers just to make me laugh, write short notes just to brighten my day. i seriously needed those dosage of happiness as well.
i need somehow to show me his love, give me a hug when i needed it, kiss me when i dun notice in the public, hold me hand anywhere, everywhere.
im feeling more and more distance from him.
dropping tears doesnt seem to help as i've done that too many times.
abusing myself doesn't seem to help either.
someone help me.
dun blame me if i find other solutions to solve, u forced me to.