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R.I.P (PART 2)

Day 2,3 & 4
These few days were the same, just that more and more people came by to show their last respect to my great-granddad. Even xiaowei, shuh pey & chrystal came, i truthfully thanked them for coming and they really touched my heart.
I mean even as friends they are willing to come, i don't see why as children, grandchildren, they don't make it a point to show up and pay their last respect! I seriously wondered what's on the mind of these children and grandchildren, isn't that your father? isn't that your grandpa? HELLLO! All just a bunch of selfish people.

The situation was still the same. same people staying to shou ye, same people lazing around eating & gossiping, same people as vitcims being ordered around. People can be so evil.
When great-granddad(GGD) was still around, no one pay him a visit not to say during normal days, even CNY, they don't bother. until he passed away, they started buying things that GGD likes to put them on the altar. STOP crying crocodile tears la idoits! Why are they being so nice? bcos GGD still has cash & houses! they are all vying for it. But poor gong gong, don't wanna bother about all these, jus want GGD to go peacefully.

During these days, gong gong cried all the time.
During prayers, during rituals or even out of no where! i cried as well. i really ached my heart. i tried hard to be by his side everyday tts why i dun mind giving up my sleep. i love him & i dun want him to be sad though it's inevitable.
On top of these, those fucking gu pors are still ordering people around! HELLO! are we yr maid? one of them even ask my gong gong to climb up to adjust the fan just to blow her when she knows that there are some problem with his leg! i curse you.
day 4 is the last day before the funeral.
I rush down after work as they have ritual this day just b4 GGD go RIP. Chanting and praying lasted for about an hour after dinner, which is the last time that we could do for him before he really leaves us. and as usual, gong gong cried, really hard.
During prayers, those bastard kids SWAY in one by one, might as well don't come at all la!
Since your prayers are not whole-heartedly, we don't need fucking people around.

i expect breakdown from gong gong on day 5 as he'll see with his own eyes how they bury GGD.

Conculsion: It's better to have just A fillal child than a bunch of unfillial chee byes. true enough?

Day 5
The day arrives to bury GGD.
Woke up damn early to get prepared and i can sense people from my side are feeling rather down, especially gong gong.
Before we left for the cemetry, people came setting up more things and bring in bands put up a performance. the music is damn saddening la and gong gong cried again. Prayers and bowing to my GGD.
Finally it's time to go. 2 buses were chartered.
Before we get more the bus, we have to walk a distance bare-footed with sock on, on the road.
i was following my gong gong holding on to him, as he cried the hardest. He just kept on crying and crying.
On the way there, gong gong was not with us. He had to be more the lorry that was transporting the coffin as he was the elderest. On reaching, we all got down the bus and walked into the uneven and muddy ground with our bare foot.
The scene that i want to last see was here. Gong gong cried till he went weak and kneel down on the ground. he kept calling out "ah pa... ah pa.." and sob hard.
After all the rituals, i immediately hold him up the bus.
He just kept on sobbing and telling me "no more already, next time no more already, cant see him anymore" and immediately i burst out crying as well. He just kept looking at the side where they bury GGD and sob hard. I din know what to tell gong gong, just allow him to cry his heart out.
The bus moved on to Tampines.
A temple where we'll leave GGD there for a 100 days before bringing him home.
Till then gong gong calmed down. He cried a lil but not hard.
We left after an 8 mintues of prayers.
On the bus, i kept chatting with gong gong hoping that he'll just forget about it for a while and soon he fell asleep. Poor him, haven been slping well.

Finally we're backed.
When gong gong got down the bus, his eyes was filled with tears again.
i could understand why cause he feels that it has came to the last and to the end.
i hold his hands and urge him to go.
Lunch was cooked and gong gong haven even get to fill his tummy, his bloody siblings just dragged him and discussed about MONEY!
wth! you guys don't wanna rest please la, let others rest ma!
Gong gong sat there for a while but couldnt take it and left.
They are just so noisy and selfish, scream and shout.
like please, your dad just left. give him some peace la! embarrass yourself outside, fuck.

People are just damn selfish.
I should say "EVERY MAN FOR THEMSLEVES" are somehow damn true.
it's not like GGD is a millionaire, they're also vying for the money till this manner!
BLOODY HELL.
i hate those bloody suckers monsters.
hope your children will do exactly what you guys did to your dad. (:

Conclusion: i was glad that we're not like that. though there are conflicts but somehow it's still not that bad. no one is eyeing on things, no one is harbouring evil thoughts (or jus that i duno).
i love them and i want the best for them.
GGD rest in peace ya.
Gong gong, stop crying already. GGD is fine and he'll know who's fillal to him and who is not.
i love you.

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